24.9.06

do yOu believe in siGns?!

posted on 18th Sep. 2006..

typing lines and then erasing them gives a wierd feeling.. u reached a state of mind where u can't talk 2 people -u know exactly how everyone will react 2 ur words u almost know the words- so u go 4 a machine trying 2 translate feelings into words which is almost impossible.. trying 2 seek wisdom from the nowhere..trying 2 evaluate ur decision.. knowing that this decision worth.. but ever will have the courage 2 stand 4 it?! that's when thoughts are revolving over & over.. there's a decision on board.. a decision i believe i can't take alone.. a decision i HAVE 2 take alone.. a decision that i have 2 bear it's consequences 4 the rest of my life.. shall i ever have the courage no matter what?! or as expected i shall withdraw as a silent wave on the shore of life?! each step i move on i feel like there r some signs from above guiding me somewhere where i'd find peace.. but who listens?! who notices these signs?! & who takes these signs as motives supporting 2 this decision making? i don know how weak iam.. or even how strong iam.. all i know is a total messed up mind shrewing all day & night seeking 4 ease.. may ALLAH help me..!

2 comments:

Unknown said...

You are the machine, a human being collects overwhelming feelings and express them in words to convert to a state of transquility. And...decisions...

Read deicisions are those who are took alone, group decisions has some narrow chance of blaming others for it, while those bold decisions took alone put yourself in front of the mirror, exposed to every fault or good thing you have done. And usually after it, whatever happy or sad you are, you are relieved, thinking that it is done, nothing can improve it anymore.

Be happy and do what is supposed to be done.

hOby said...

thanks 4 the support irc :)
it's that sometimes when one look at himself in the mirror after taking a decision he kinda get shocked of wat he had turned into! again glad 2 c ur comments every now & then :)